It Is • by Jeannine Peregrine
It’s a box of crayons, a stack of construction paper, and a bottle of Elmer’s white glue. It’s a tiny watercolor paint set with primary colors to mix into rainbows, and the 2nd place ribbon for the St. Patrick’s Day poster contest at Hickory Elementary School.
It’s painting ceramics, and batik, and pounding on copper to make belt buckles, weaving dream catchers, and meeting Mr. Scribble who transforms a scribble I’ve drawn on a piece of paper into a cartoon that looks like me.
It’s bumping against that word “Artist” for the first time and “knowing” I’m not one because I can’t draw the apple on the table, or my sister’s hand, or the family cat in any realistic way, and so I walk away from art as an elective in high school ... but it wends its way into a flurry of notes written to friends, and poems scribbled in chemistry class, and doodles in yearbooks and painted posters for the football players to crash through on Friday night games in fall.
It’s a rubber stamp and another and another and paper besides, and coming home after the 9-to-5 job and creating until sleep insists I stop. The stamps adorn an envelope, which is chosen off a table by a Marine serving in Somalia and so then, these stamps, lead me to the man I marry.
Collage and art journals catch me when the stamps lose their magic after the towers collapse, and so it is images and matte medium and paint and books and a blog, all filled with Wordsworth’s “breathings of my heart.”
It’s drawing again and knowing it doesn’t matter if I can’t draw the apple on the table, or my sister’s hand, or the family cat in a hyper realistic way; it’s understanding that the word “Artist” encompasses so much more than that.
It’s my calling card and icebreaker.
It’s people and places and experiences.
It’s toughened me up and opened me up and softened me up all at the same time.
It’s the truest thing I do.
Art.
The links in the chain of the charm bracelet of my life.
To learn more about Jeannine Peregrine, visit myfourrooms.blogspot.com.
What fun to see you (Jeannine) here! Clapping here and smiling....Bravo!
Posted by: Paula Bogdan | 01/18/2011 at 04:06 AM
So beautifully written! I know this is cliche, but you've described what art is to me too.
And I never knew that tidbit about Mr. P. ♥♥♥ How lovely!
You're a wonderful writer and artist and you inspire me daily.
~L~
Posted by: studio lolo | 01/19/2011 at 02:41 PM
beautiful! i agree whole-heartedly with studio lolo-you are a wonderful writer and such an inspiration!
jeannine, i gave up on art too in those early years for the same reasons-i could not draw realistically no matter how hard i tried and compared myself to others who could. i came back to it through stamping and then continued to follow a similar path to painting and collage.
i'm so glad i did. i'm so glad you did.
Posted by: tricia | 01/20/2011 at 05:26 AM
I love how you have written this Jeannine. Thank you.
Posted by: Wendy B Burton | 01/21/2011 at 02:39 PM
Lovely! Very well written and expressed.
Posted by: Miz Carla | 02/02/2011 at 12:00 PM