Bravery: If not in my art, where?
Before I ripped up the piece of paper where I had written down my response to the question, I wasn't certain that that is what I would be asked to do. Rip it up into teeny tiny pieces, that is. I suspected that that might be the course but I wasn't 100 percent certain.
And because I wasn't 100 percent certain, what I wrote on that paper isn't really and truly what was beating in my heart, wanting to be written and released.
It was a response to a prompt given by art journaling instructor Orly Avineri, who said to think of a time when everything changed, and to write about that time.
There have been more than just one time for me, really. And some of those times I'm less fearful of discussing openly, while some other times I'm much more fearful of discussing openly.
This realization is something I admitted to and shared at the end of the 2-day workshop that we had with Orly. "Brave" has become such a throw-away word these days, I think. But saying it isn't the same as doing it. I mean for a grown adult woman like myself who seeks to be uninhibited in my art to hesitate and hold back and resist in really and truly "going there" on just a tiny piece of paper illustrates the point.
I ask myself: if not in my art, where will I be brave? And if not now, when?