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03/28/2010


A Camera & A Dream • by Jennifer Wolsey


What does a great life look like? I've been asking myself that question a lot lately ... do I have a great life? Well, I think I do ― actually I know I do ― an incredibly blessed life in fact. I have been a stay at home mom for 17 years now, something that I consider to be a luxury these days. My husband and I decided long ago that we would make certain sacrifices to make this possible, and we haven't regretted it.

A Moment Paused in Time
We have three pretty amazing children that are healthy, creative, and kind. Our youngest is set to enter kindergarten this fall and that has left me with the exciting new challenge of finding out what I want to do with this next phase in my life. Just recently I have taken my great love of photography to the next step by creating a Web site. You can find me at jenniferwolseyphotography.com. My photography is spontaneous. I'm not looking for the perfect shot but rather an emotion ... a feeling that people can relate to, a moment paused in time.

I'm not one that spends very much time focusing on the past, in fact I often have to be reminded to slow down, breathe, and reflect on how my life experiences have helped to form me into the woman I am today. Just the other day I saw a bumper sticker on a car that read “Remember who you wanted to be ...” It's all in the timing, I don't believe in coincidences. It spoke to me and I remembered. When I was a little girl I knew I wanted to be a mommy more than anything else, but I also remember throughout my childhood wanting to be a nurse, a teacher, and I believe ... an ice cream man! Children are born with the ability to dream big, they don't consider the roadblocks to their dreams or limit themselves based on self doubt ― they believe in themselves.

Going Back to the Pain
Mary Oliver said: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”

I want my soul to be stirred
I want to be washed in emotion in its most tender form
I want to embrace beauty in the most fragile of moments
I want to be witness to the greatest power of all....love

In order to make that happen, I had to be willing to go back to that place in my own life. A place in time where I experienced a pain that touched my soul and changed how I experienced the world.

My dream of becoming a mom became a reality 17 years ago when we were blessed with a healthy baby boy we named Alex. Being a mom brought on so many emotions deeper than I had expected and every moment was startlingly new and exciting. We waited two years before we decided to try again, and got pregnant right away. It was a little different this time; my body remembered the process and my belly popped out much earlier. I got out the maternity clothes and walked around with my hand lovingly resting on the swell of my unborn baby. Now that I knew what being a mom felt like, I couldn't wait for this new child to arrive. We didn't know the sex of the baby yet, but I knew in my heart it was a little girl.

Towards the end of my fourth month, I lost my baby. The heartbreak from that loss was overwhelming. People were kind, but nobody could truly understand just how special that baby was to me ... in my heart I had already seen her through all her “firsts.” I could almost imagine her smile and the way she would feel in my arms. Losing Grace made me realize just how precious life is and how profoundly a child, no matter how long they're with us, impacts our lives. I have since met a handful of women who have also lost their children; some have left the hospital with Polaroid’s of their babies. A friend of mine keeps hers tucked under her mattress ... clinging to the hospital issued photo as her only memory of her daughter Brooke. What I wouldn't give for a photo of Grace. To me there is no shame in illness or loss, and beauty is all around us, in every moment and surely in every child.

Planning My Dream
We all possess gifts ― my gift is the ability to see beyond the obvious and into the heart of the moment. I love to capture the innocence and spontaneity of life’s most precious moments.

While I adore taking photos of children who are running and playing and enjoying every moment of their carefree existence, I also feel compelled to offer something to the children who aren’t quite as carefree. The medically fragile ones, who are spending their formative years in a hospital ― their story is no less important, their dreams no less relevant.

So many parents of these little angels are emotionally, physically and financially drained. Many aren’t thinking of snapping memories with their camera; they’re worried about spending their time in the few moments they have. It would be an honor to be able to provide these families with keepsake photos of their children. I cannot imagine a better gift than providing a preserved memory of that which they hold most dear. I am in the beginning stages of this hopeful project, which I want be 100% non-profit, and would greatly appreciate any insights and inspiration.

A few months ago I was a stay-home-mom. Now I am a stay-home-mom armed with my camera and a dream.

Jennifer Wolsey is a mother and a photographer. To learn more about Jennifer visit her Web site at jenniferwolseyphotography.com. She welcomes comments and suggestions on how to make her dream a reality. Email her at jenwolsey3@yahoo.com.

Comments

Being able to put your own feelings aside to give the gift of your time and talents to provide a lifelong keepsake to families of those with medically fragile children is such a wonderful thing. I am inspired and humbled by your plight and will do whatever I can to help you reach your dream.

this is a beautiful idea. i lost my mother to suicide and miscarried all in the same week, so i understand your loss. what a wonderfully special idea you've dreamed up. i wish you much success!

Hoping your beautiful idea grows to reality. Thank you for sharing your story.

What a fabulous project, very touching and I think very worthy of exploring. I would love to hear more about it as you grow your idea... thanks for sharing your story. I am so happy to know we can be armed with a camera and help people, instead of armed with anything related to violence!

I am sorry for your loss; I also have experienced that kind of pain, I was in my fifth month. I love your dream; we see the heart in people when we take capture candid photos.
Everyone needs to be freeze framed; time is a precious gift.
I love photography, with this medium we can stop time and
catch rare moments. These are the fragments of our lives. What a wonderful project; I hope your dream comes true!

Your story spoke to my heart, Jennifer. We lost our second child too; I was in my 3rd month. The loss & pain has greatly influenced my life, my perspective of the world, and my creative work as well.

I wonder if you've heard of Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep (NILMDTS)? It is a quality organization of photographers who capture priceless memories for families: http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/

Best wishes to you as you move forward with your camera & your dream.

Jennifer - I just wanted to voice what everyone else had already said, you are not alone and I am so proud of you for turning one of the most horrible events in our lives into a gift for other grieving families! I wish you the best of luck, and know that the help you need is out there if you just keep looking. I look forward to seeing where you take your gift of photography!

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