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My Creativity Revisited • by Jing van Opstal

I guess it is easier for me to talk about it now than two years ago. I have been married for 11 years and tried to start a family. Unfortunately, luck was not on my side - I had 5 miscarriages and two years ago was the last straw. I thought that I was going to die - pain and blood then it was gone.

Looking for Answers
I was glued in the computer just looking for answers and researching aside from my usual doctor's appointments. I spent the whole day online without realizing it until my husband would come home from work. I used to do a lot of personal scrapbooking - even my husband was asking where's the next album? I just shrugged my shoulder and said “coming soon”.

Think Big
One day I got so tired from the computer episodes because my shoulder and hands were suffering a bit. Then I saw my albums and patterned papers and other supplies and I started to create something again. But I was already thinking “bigger” after a friend commented on the table decorations and gifts from an event I hosted. She said that I should sell my stuff. That's when it all began ... and the buying started and my craft room had to be rearranged and bought a couple pieces of furniture. Since we move a lot I can only have a temporary design for my craft room. Now it is like a store. I kept busy selling my products and it truly kept me from thinking about kids. I just started to accept it, but we were also considering adoption. I was a bit hesitant since I am not sure if I can cope with another heartache and be emotionally drained with rejection or tough requirements, etc.

Creativity Saved Me
I think creating things saved me from being emotionally drained and depressed forever. Now that I am in the creative world competition is just so huge. I have always been competitive but then I did some soul searching and realized that I needed to take a break and take things slow.

I just finished my projects with a retail store - thankful about it aside from the monetary experience - but I think it is time to slow down and do something more for myself. It's like longing to be part of a group where I can just grow and be given an opportunity to show what I can do.

Jing van Opstal is a mixed-media artist who lives in Abu Dhabi, United Arab Emirates. She may be reached by e-mail at To see more of her work, visit her blog at


You make beautiful things!

I'm so sorry for your losses and pain.
I too lost a baby.

You are one of the most creative persons I have ever met and I glad that your creativity has given you strength to face life's challenges. I am sorry for your loss but am happy that you are able to touch so many lives with your beautiful creations. CY

Jing, my lovely are beautiful inside and out :) Thank you so much for sharing your story, as it is one of strength, courage and hope. YOU are an amazing WOMAN! Keep on smiling and inspiring others. Big hugs~ Michelle

Jing is my personal friend whom I had known and loved since we were in college. I know she's a beautiful woman inside and out. Her pain was like mine too because I could never get pregnant because of age and blocked fallopian tubes. It's great to hear that she find strength and joy through her creative pursuits. I find my strength and hope in God knowing that "all things work for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose."
To add, I admire her beautiful designs and the fantastic things that she was able to create.

Jing, you inspired me a lot to give my best in everything I do. I pray for your continued success. Good luck, my friend!

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